A waking life

The most difficult and the best thing about being here in Macedonia is that I only exist in 3 states.

1. It's so amazing that I am here. Living this.
2. What the Hell am I doing here?!
3. Forget everything else, just try to make it to tomorrow.

Okay, perhaps it's not the state of minds that are difficult, it's the fact that I am lucid of them.  I no longer think of such breezy things as seeing my friends, going to a game, eating at a great restaurant, seeing a movie, or even chance meeting a girl.  But the longer I'm here I hope the less all that matters.
Sitting on this precipice, believing in the in-between...I hope I don't fall in it.